We spent a bit of time talking online about some of our troubles today. Those who follow facebook and twitter posts got a couple of updates that focused on pain and post surgery items. While it's true that Brandie is dealing with a great deal of pain right now, she is making forward progress in many areas.
I wanted to write a few lines here talking about the good items. She did get some great rest this morning. For about 10 minutes after she woke from sleep she sounded and looked almost like a normal person (on bedrest). I did manage to talk her into some food today. Against numerous protests early on about her getting 'sick' we worked our way through some soup and applesauce.
Another great thing we did was read all of the messages you've sent in. Nearly 100 posts, e-mails, tweets, etc were read to her. Some nearly brought her to tears (the good kind of course). I was reading names and alias's that I've never heard of, and Brandie would be saying ever so softly next to me... that's the person who sent me this, or they are the ones who I met at here, etc. Yes many from family and friends, but plenty from people whom I've never met, but I cannot thank enough for all their support. Your messages have helped carry her through these hard times and for that our entire family is grateful. All of this before noon.
Shortly after noon we found out the hard way how much pain she would be in if she wasn't on the pain killers. She had gone about 3 hours little to no injection from her IV. It struck pretty fast, a sharp pain that was difficult to work through, that covered all across her chest area. Making it painful to even take a breath. It took about 45 minutes to get that under control. That was the low part of our day.
We worked through it, although there again it was really Brandie who pulled through that mess. She dosed up heavily on pain killers and from mid-pm until almost 7pm she pretty much slept. She ate more food for dinner. Although still far from what any of us would call a meal, I call it progress. She even is standing up for a couple of minutes without feeling like she's about to pass out. Although walking has been limited to about 3-4 steps before needing to lay down again. Still, for 24 hours after major surgery, I also call this a win and will take the progress.
Her struggles right now are best described as finding balance. She wants to get off the pain meds but her body is not there yet. She wants to be up and about, here again, her body is not ready. She wants to engage in simple activities, from watching tv, knitting, even talking, but her body is not ready. We will get there! Let us go to bed knowing that rest is good and tomorrow will be a better day for Brandie. Thank you everyone.