So. I have to admit something. About a month ago I wrote the post that would show up today. I just wanted to get it out of the way and knew I couldn't let the day pass with silence.
And then, the day got closer. And I came and deleted the post I wrote. Because it just wasn't good. And so here we are. For real. On the one anniversary, my cancerversary if you will.
It's strange. It's been a year. On some days it seems like it's been so much longer than that. And in other moments I could swear it was just yesterday.
I feel like I know what I'm supposed to say right now ... something like, things sucked but I'm so grateful for blah, blah, blah. And, I mean, that is true. Things did suck. I'm grateful I'm here. But it's so much more than that. It's so much more powerful than that and not nearly as trite as just saying that soundbite sounds.
And I am really struggling with words right now. Maybe next year I will have something profound to say (although, seriously? Don't hold your breath).
So. It's been a year. A truly life changing year.
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P.S. I just reread the post where I shared it all with you, and I'm sitting here bawling. I remember being so afraid to share. I mean, we just found out. Who goes right to the blog to share? Well, I do. Why? Because I knew I couldn't do this alone. I knew I needed support. And you guys? You have rocked. I can not thank you enough for every. single. thing.
No need to thank - although it's nice that you do. It's what being part of a community is all about. It's what having friends is all about. It's about allowing others to care for and about you - just as you care for and about them.
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Sending love your way, Brandie - and knowing that we all need quiet times in our life. I have been quiet lately too. Sometimes it's in our quietest moments that the real rejuvenation happens. Be kind to yourself. xo Chris, San Diego
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you had this community. And I am so glad we have YOU.
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you are where you are on this anniversary. It's amazing to think how far you've come through things, and how fast, and yet slow, a year moves. I can't wait until you step across that finish line in June - it will definitely be a sight to behold. :)
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