A spark ....

Last week a small spark began working it's way back into our house. I think opening up here about so many of struggles and feeling helped me release them. And there's no denying it: my body is in full healing mode, which is helping me also emotionally feel better.

On top of all of that, we have some exciting plans for our family this year and planning for them has begun. And that planning? Is making me feel very excited! I kind of wish we could fast forward to May - my big bash and August - big family vacation! Because looking forward to both of these things? I filling me with so much joy. And ideas. Oh my. The ideas - they are flying through my mind.

With the party there are decoration, invites, food, music, tables, a tent, so many things to do. And plan. And lists. Lots of lists to be made. {Ahem. I feel no shame in tell you I've not already done the invite list but made a play-list of music}. This birthday party will be special .. not just because it's my birthday party, but it's my birthday/I kicked cancer's ass party {although we might need to find a less swear word way to phrase it on the invite!}. And husband and I talked and both are in agreement to go big. So big is where we are going.

And vacation? Travel arrangements to make, packing lists to start. Okay, well, I'm not that ahead of the game, but we did book our travel this weekend and I have to say I'm thrilled! In August, all of us are headed out west. We are going to take a train from Chicago to Colorado. We'll hang out there then head to Moab, Utah. At some point we'll go to Four Corners Landmark. Then head back to Colorado and train it back to Chicago. I can NOT wait to go on this trip. I've never been out that way before, neither have the kids. We are all looking forward to it. The only downside is I have several family members out there and there won't be time to see them :( I guess that just means we'll have to go back someday.

Anyway, all of that, has worked together to perk me up. And the extreme heaviness I felt last week has lifted some. I can finally breath again. It's a nice feeling that I'm going to hold on to as long as I can.