Sometimes you just have to.

Starting on New Year's Eve, I began to knit the Shalom Cardigan.

I thought it would be a great knit to start the new year with. I was excited about the new year. We had had a bad fall/winter thus far with the kids just seemingly endlessly sick. And I just wanted the new year to be a great one, a lovely one, a peaceful one. And so I decided to start knitting Shalom.

The cardigan is lovely, but I also knew the sweater as the pattern was written would not fit me at all. I'm just a tiny bit bigger (and by tiny bit I mean probably like 3-4 sizes LOL!) So I looked around for modifications that someone else already worked out since I'm not good at that.

And then I cast on. With zeal and earnestness. And I knit my little heart out. And I finished it pretty quickly actually. In about a week. But I didn't have buttons and so it sat. And then I tried it on and I just wasn't sure. So it sat. And I tried it on again and I still wasn't sure it fit. So it sat. Then I put it on with a friend here who said she thought it worked, but maybe it was a bit off, but I should still wear it. So it sat.

Tonight I ripped the entire thing out. And I'm back to a big ball of yarn. And I can't lie, I'm a bit heart-broken about it. It wasn't easy to rip out. But it needed to be done. And it's honestly a bit how life feels right now. I feel like there is so much on my plate. So much that needs to be done. And we're getting through it all, but it feels just a bit off. {Though I have to say, I have so much I am grateful for and this isn't really a complaint, but more of here's how things stand right now}.

Anyway, in light of all of this, I'm going to take a blogging break for a couple of weeks. Much like I have been doing lately anyway, but now you have warning. And the thing is I have SO much to blog about. SO much to share. It's just, well Life. It needs me to be present and there. And so I have to take a break here.